Celebration of Life Video & Three Months

It’s not hard to remember the anniversary. An anniversary I don’t want to celebrate. The first of every month.

Today was tough. But I got up and brushed my teeth. I started working on my to-do list even though I did not feel like it. I love deleting my to-do items on my phone as I finish them.

I listened a few times to A Little Bit Stronger by Sara Evans. It talks about continuing to move and live in spite of and beyond the pain. I hope I’m getting a little stronger every day…on a variety of levels. If I am, I don’t particularly feel it right now. I just know I’m grateful for the strength to get up and brush my teeth.

I appreciated every text today to remind me I am being prayed for, loved, and supported through this.

Tonight was exactly what I needed. My friend came over, one of my fellow club members. The hug of someone who knows…it is the greatest comfort. And at the same time, I am sorry that she knows.

On this three-month anniversary of a day I wish had never happened, I want to thank Alec for videotaping Chandler’s celebration of life service. We will treasure it forever.

You are always on our minds and in our hearts, Chandler. You are with us forever. Honestly, that’s not good enough for me. I wants you HERE. I want to hear your voice, to hug you, to walk into the kitchen and see you birdie-ing orange juice out of the carton and putting it back in the fridge.

But here’s where faith comes in. I believe you are celebrating a different anniversary today. An anniversary of complete freedom. I believe you are in a place where there is an abundance of everything that brings you the deepest pleasure and joy. I believe that I will join you someday and watch proudly all the ways you’ve discovered to defy heaven’s version of gravity.

What an astounding 25 years you gave us, Chandler! We love you!