Today's MRI Situation & a Mama Moment

(First published on CaringBridge, December 2018)

It turns out they are having issues getting the MRI done because with Chandler's ventilator on board, they must have an anesthesiologist present. They are working to coordinate that. Please pray that the MRI can happen today and that it will provide definitive information for us. Chandler is calm and is actually sleeping at the moment.

I didn't follow Chandler on instagram because 1) I'm old and prefer Facebook and 2) I was afraid I would see him doing all manner of extreme stuff on wheels, off wheels, off rocks, etc. But a friend told me she saw a post there the other day that any mom would treasure. This pic is one that Charli pulled from that post right after the accident. In the post (I think it was on Mother's Day a couple of years ago), he recalled that when he was little, the Tim McGraw song I Like It, I Love It would come on and I would sing, "Don't know what it is about Chandler Man's lovin', but I like it, I love it, I want some more of it."

Yesterday I gently pressed my face next to Chandler's and sang that song to him. He leaned his whole body toward me. Everything within me sank into that moment and breathed in the scent of my son's being. I like it. I love it. I want some more of it.